Desecration or Devotion

 

I want you to fuck me 

With intention 

I don’t know 

If the hunger in your eyes 

Is lust 

Or love 

And I don’t know 

If the force of your fingers 

Pressing into my skin

Denting my hips 

Is from desire

Or anger 

Is your tongue searching my throat

Looking for a home

Or reminding me 

That this is all you want 

Are you looking at me with a fire 

Because you crave my temple

Made of flesh and bone 

And nothing else

Or because you are angry

That it doesn’t fully belong to you 

That I am the goddess it is dedicated to

And you are simply passing through

With your offering upon my altar

Hoping your sacrifice is enough

And I allow you to worship once more 

Does desecrating my shrine

Make you feel better 

About the fact that it doesn’t belong to you

Do you inflict pain

As a cruel reminder 

To both of us 

That this isn’t sustainable 

That this is all this is

There is no we 

Or is it because 

You can’t just fuck me 

Like you love me

Because that hurts even more 

-j.p