Worlds Apart

I think that sometimes

You and I are perfect together

..when we are actually together

But we are so far apart

But then again not really

I’m confusing you 

Let me explain

When we are surfing the same wavelength

Fingertips in the ocean of connection

The way my laughter bubbles out of my chest

And yours erupts from your throat 

Like molten lava

I could sit and watch forever 

Basking in your warmth

I never want to leave

When we work in tandem as a team

Every thought of mine predicting each word of yours

Flowing together synonymously 

The back and forth dialogue

Drawing us closer together

Like pulling the last stitch to a close

I feel like we are knit so close there’s barely a seam

But as intense as those feel

As much as that closes the gaps between us

There’s still so much space there

Because when we aren’t on the same wavelength 

I feel like you’re in an entirely different ocean

On an entirely different planet

And I can just happen to see you with my telescope lens

Wondering if you’re ever going to make contact

Or if it should be me

But I’m scared to try

Because sometimes I try and it pushes you farther away

Like a seam ripper 

Tugging and slicing each of the stitches in my sides 

That we have made together

Laughing as best friends 

But losing as lovers 

I don’t know how to connect with you outside of that

I want you when you don’t want me

You crave me when I’m somewhere else entirely

I don’t know what to do 

You are so alien to me sometimes

And yet so familiar 

We’re great when we are

We’re not when we aren’t 

Are we or aren’t we

I suppose I’ll wait for you to orbit back to me to find out

-j.p