Once More

 

I can’t believe this is happening again

I can’t believe I let it happen again

Why is this happening again

Why did it ever happen to begin with

Since when did no ever mean anything but 

How many times 

Does it have to cross my lips

To be heard and respected

What do I have to do

To protect my body and its rights

Because right now

It feels like it doesn’t fucking have any 

My quivering lip

Aching bones

And painful step

Are not because

“It’s that good, baby”

I hate you

And all the ones who think

That they have such a dominion over me

That no

Is merely a suggestion 

That they might consider 

Before taking what they want 

And I don’t know why

It keeps happening 

Is it because I am too soft

Too gentle

Too kind

And people think that with all I have to give

I wouldn’t mind 

If they took something from me

Instead of waiting for it to be freely given

Maybe it’s more fun that way

When you are the only one enjoying it

And it feels kingly 

To lay claim over something

That doesn’t want to be yours 

-j.p