Sweet Lure

 

I am done with your apathetic apologies 

And ignorant half-assed reparations 

I am exhausted of you

I am sick of you

When your name even dares

To try to venture across my lips

I feel the bile in my throat rising

Trying to drown it out

Denying all the sweetness of your words

That I ate up

I allowed the behavior you chose

That is so disgusting to me now

Because there was a time that I trusted you

And now my gut is reminding me

In its own cruel way

To listen to it in the future

Because it was right about you

And now my brain agrees

You disgust me

And while I am not violent or hateful

You are not deserving of my kind heart 

And you have hurt me so terribly 

That I hope someday

You choke on your lies laced with honey 

And your throat closes 

While mine never has to worry 

About trying to expel you ever again

I hope your lips turn blue

While mine can smile 

Knowing your name will never cross them again

I hope your tongue stills 

While mine never revisits your bitter taste again

Flies come and go 

But I am a bear 

Loving when I have reason to be

Fatal when I have reason to be

Discerning in my ferocity and generosity

I protect my own 

And my heart is precious to me

Even if it’s not in your eyes

So god help you

If you ever try to lay out 

Another honey trap for me 

-j.p