You’ll Miss Me

 

I’m happy for you

Because instead of being the victim

You’ve laid claim to someone for yourself

My hot tears streaming down my face

Aren’t falling down your cheeks

And the empty hole in my gut

Telling me I’m worthless

Isn’t making a home in yours

I hope you’re happy

That the hurt you’ve felt 

Is something you now get

To inflict on others

So tell me something 

Does it make you feel better?

Does it ease your pain?

Was it worth it?

Was I worth it?

I don’t think I ever was

Because if that were the case

You wouldn’t have chosen to hurt me

When you knew how much

And how incredibly deeply

I cared for you

You got what you wanted 

The thought of you makes me sick

Because you took what I had to give

And rather than choose to be kind 

Compassionate 

Understanding 

You chose to take advantage of me instead 

Someday you will wake up

And you will miss what I did for you

And maybe you’ll even miss me

But I’ll be long gone

Giving to those 

Who loved me enough to stay

And to accept me

With open arms 

Ready to love me back

-j.p