Awoken

I have lost myself 

In the search for who I am 

In the hopes of who I am going to be

 

In the changes I have forced 

To make myself more palatable 

To other’s tongues 

I have dimmed my light

By trying to cover 

The best parts of myself

Thinking it would make me 

Easier to look at

But there’s a reason they tell you 

Not to stare into the sun

I am going to be so bright

I will burn the world I have created 

I will light the rooftops 

I will spark such a flame 

That there will be nothing left

And I will rebuild again

With a temple worthy

Of the goddess I am meant to be 

I will worship at her feet 

I will blaspheme her no more

She will singe 

Every doubt I have in myself 

And out of the ashes I will rise 

I have found myself

In the cleanliness of her chaos 

I was never lost 

I was simply buried

Under the soil of my own self doubt 

No more will I sacrifice 

To the wrong gods

No more. 

-j.p