Bitterness is a Choice

I knew you before I knew you

I had seen all the warning signs 

But I witnessed them 

From someone else’s complaints

I thought I knew how to deal with you

Before I even got involved with you 

But when we started talking 

With other intentions 

I didn’t see what they spoke of 

You were a completely different person 

Kind, talkative, giving, affectionate 

You were wonderful 

And that went away 

You changed as soon 

As you got everything that you wanted 

You became cold and distant, unfeeling 

You were so kind to me once 

You used to be sweet to me 

When you were sweet on me 

And now I see it 

Yet you can’t understand 

Why people you’ve burned 

Don’t want to talk to you anymore 

But through all of the pain 

I still tried to be your friend 

And you still reject even that 

I don’t choose to still talk to you 

Because I enjoy getting hurt 

I keep talking to you 

Because I’ve done the same thing 

I’ve been where you are 

And I hate to see someone 

Go through that alone 

I hate to see someone 

Be taken by the anger 

That they have for their situation 

I want to help you be better instead of bitter 

Because I wish someone did that for me 

Despite my trail of broken hearts

But at least I was willing to change 

And willing to listen 

So I think it might be time to stop

You have chosen to stitch yourself together 

With red flags 

Hoping to intimidate others away

I’m sorry my darling

For as someone who has done the same

It is a very lonely way to live 

And the seams hurt more to take out

Than they do to put in 

Especially when there is no one there 

To hold your hand while you do it 

-j.p