Fear of Loneliness

I thought I had healed

Forgiven and forgotten 

But

There are still days

Where I remember more than I care to

Sometimes 

I still feel the slip of a ring on my finger

And I lose the air in my chest

To think that someone had once

Wanted me so much 

That our lives were so entangled 

By a metal circle

I worry 

That I made a mistake

In letting that love go

Despite the lies and the pain 

Because I fear 

That I will never be wanted again

To the extent

That someone would claim me 

As their own

And I will be left to wander this earth

Searching for something 

I already had 

And this anxiety might seem silly

To those who already have 

Their morning kisses 

Or to those 

Who shun heartbreak entirely 

But to those who understand 

The aching desire to feel valued 

You also understand 

How much of the anguish of love 

You forget 

While you’re too busy forgiving 

-j.p