Pretty Enough to Love

 

As much as I lose count 

Of all the changes I would make

When I study myself in the mirror

I wish I didn’t look like this

Like pretty 

Pretty enough to distract from my mind

Or how wonderful I am beyond my exterior

Pretty enough that people don’t hear no

And they use what they see as an excuse

To take what isn’t meant for them

Pretty enough to be nothing more

Than a one night stand

Because my personality didn’t hold up

To my pretty

I wish someone could love me

Really love me

For everything that isn’t visual

I want someone to love me beyond 

Five senses

I think my soul is more beautiful 

Than anything I have in the mirror

But it’s not valued

Because it can’t be touched

Or taken

Maybe I wish for changes

To help me justify

Feeling wanted but unlovable

I wish I were pretty enough

That I could be loved

Because 

And despite 

Of everything 

Maybe then

 I would learn to love myself too 

-j.p