Chrysalis

How many times

Must I go through the process

Of being left breathless in my bed

Covered in sweat and a smile

Just to be told 

I’m too much

And I’m terrifying 

How many times

Must the smile be wiped from my face

Because someone was too scared

Of not being enough to love me

So they blame it on me instead 

How many times

Must I be fucked

And then fucked over

To learn it is not that

I am not desirable enough

For someone to brave my soul

It is that they submit to their 

Doubt and cowardice 

Rather than allow

The goodness I will bring to their life

Because people are afraid of change

Unless he is willing 

To be molded and shaped 

The caterpillar will always remain as such

And I deserve someone

Who is ready to fly 

-j.p