Contractual Obligation

I know I am not perfect

I do not want someone 

Who looks at me 

With a rose tinted gaze 

I am by far 

Not the most beautiful 

The most talented

Or the brightest person 

That you will ever meet 

I want someone 

Who knows these things 

Yet wants me unequivocally 

For they see in me 

What I do not

I do not want to be desired

For misplaced views of perfection

I would rather be craved

For my potential 

My existing triumphs

And the growth to come 

To be loved unconditionally 

Does not mean to be cared for 

Despite flaws and mistakes

It means to be loved without question

Without a stipulation 

I want someone to look at me

And say 

Without a doubt

A hesitation 

Or delay 

“I love you in your entirety” 

I want certainty in the words

That will carry my heart

To its final resting place 

For I am exhausted 

Of being enjoyed 

For moments of myself

That require 

Terms and conditions 

There should not be

An escape clause 

For the turmoil 

And the depth

Of my existence 

Take all of me 

Or none of me 

-j.p